Stress

I am a worrier. I always have been. When i was growing up i worried about school, friends, enemies, everything. As i got older i added work and men into the mix. Now at a ripe old age of 26 all i do is stress out about everything. I stress about our house, our jobs, families. When i am at work im stressed about work. when im home, im stressed. I just never can relax. Finally all this stressing and being on edge has caught up with me. A few fridays ago i had finished an extremely stressful week @ work. I woke up on saturday and my jaw hurt. I really didnt think much of it and kind of just ignored it and hoped it would go away ( like i tend to do). The next week at work was even worse and home was getting the better half of me. At this point my jaw is feeling worse. i couldnt chew, yawn, brush my teeth, anything, with out being in excruciating pain. I made an appointment with the dentist and it turns out i have TMJ caused by stress! AWESOME! his remedy 'take a vacation'. Which honestly i could use and sounds delightful, but even on vacation i stress about being in a new place and getting everything i want to done. Last night i tried to just shut my brain off when i went to sleep, but ive had so much on my mind thats really just impossible. Work has not been stressful at all this week so that helps. I just need to learn to relax, not let everything get to me so much, and how to just let things happen.

Nice Long weekend

So the past few weekends dan and i have been really busy. We went to the Legends Classic Hockey game at Fenway and the following weekend we went to the Hot Stove Cool Music charity concert at the house of blues and saw Bronson Arroyo and Tinted windows. Both events were a lot of fun and i was glad to have something fun and different to do on the weekend. My work days have been extremely busy, and this past week absolutely kicked my ass. By the time i got home on friday night (at around 8pm) i really just wanted to pull the covers over my head and not leave the house for a week. Luckily i had a lot to do on saturday so i got my ass out of bed and did not let work defeat me! The weather was nice(for January) so i went to the farm stand and got some fresh ingredients came home and made a nice lasagna. I summonsed my inner Italian and made a freeking delicious meal. Eric and Nicole came over and we played some board games and ate my dinner, complete with a salad AND bread! (who needs olive garden?) The meal was a big success and i was really happy everyone loved it. Now of course because i summonsed my inner Italian, we have a ton of left overs. as a matter of fact thats all thats in our fridge right now, left overs. Which i love!

Sunday was a little more laid back. My dad came over and helped me put up the last 2 doors in the hallway so now that is one project that i can check off my list.

Today i'm off from work and its crappy outside. Its 1130 and im still in my pajamas watching the price is right. I'd say this is the perfect way to end my relaxing weekend!

Year in review

This blog is really becoming monthly. Now that the holidays are over i will write more!

Im not one to make resolutions, i never have. I feel like I'm just setting myself up to fail. Instead i take the new year as a time to look back and see what i have accomplished during the past year. 2009 was a strange one for me. I spent a majority of the year worrying about getting laid off. The year ended with work being so busy i spent most nights in tears. I accomplished nothing major during the year and by the end of it found my self in a bit of a funk. I found out everyone at my job thinks i am a slut who sleeps around. I lost a coworker i hated more than anything and gained a new one who i love! My home life has been great and i can not complain about my friends, family and home. I am very lucky in those areas. Overall my year just was. I can't pinpoint anything great about it or anything horrendous and i guess thats a pretty good thing...

This year i hope to not get laid off and to get out of this life funk i have found myself in for about a year. i really dont think thats too much to ask for...