When did i get so mean?

Over the past few weeks people keep telling me that i am mean. I think they are just kidding, but really when i stop to think about it i have gotten pretty mean. I think most of it is just becoming so incredibly jaded. I no longer expect the best out of people. All day, every day, i feel like people just disappoint me. The atmosphere i am in 40 hours a week is pretty much "doom and gloom". i try to stay positive and happy, but its hard to when you are surrounded by people who are not. I think the stress of that plus other things just makes me very short with people. I dont mean to be a jerk, but i think i just come across that way. Another reason i think i come across as a mean person is because i do like to joke with people. i pretty much take nothing seriously and when im uncomfortable i make a joke. I think this scares people and people who have no sense of humor just think im being a giant ahole.

So now i am trying to be nicer to people, i really am, but some people just make it really hard. I am turning over a new leaf and just keeping my big mouth shut. It will be a new thing for me, but i think i should at least try to be more pleasant.

Is this thing on?

Ok so blogging in the latter half of the year just didnt happen. but guess what!? im back! Nothing really exciting going on, which is probably why i stop even playing with this thing.

Overall 2010 was a great year.I really lived outside my comfort zone and pushed myself to do things i never thought i would do, hello tattoo! I'm glad for the memories i made and the friends i had them with. I'm hoping 2011 will be just as good, if not better. So far im not off to the greatest start a few nagging aliments and some other things. But I feel like January always starts out like this.

Now to just make it through till the weekend and start keeping up with this blog!