Sometimes i speak my mind too much and it gets me in to trouble. Sometimes i speak my mind to others and it gets THEM into trouble. When will i learn not to express my opinions to others and just keep my thoughts and feelings to my self? You would think after 24 years of my mouth getting me into trouble i would have learned by now.... but i have not! Maybe sometimes i'm too sensitive and i shouldnt let things bother me. That would help with my big mouth. Maybe i'm too nice to people. Maybe i give too many people the benefit of the doubt. Whatever it is, I always seem to be regretting things i said, thoughts/feelings i have shared or confiding in someone i think i can trust. This year has been a lot of first for me... My first time on my own, my first puppy, and my first time (and only!!!) getting married. I think this year should also be the first time that i learn to shut my trap and not get involved in things. I need a switch to just shut my feelings off. I care too much about people to do this, especially when someone is doing something to hurt the ones i love. I will just continue to let others badger my self worth and make me feel bad about myself. I obviously am not worth it to some people. My whole life i have been told i am not good enough, pretty enough, etc. When i am finally old enough and strong enough to prove people wrong some one has to come by and slash me right back in my place and remind me that i will always be the ugly, fat, worthless little girl i am destined to be. But from now on i am a new Amy. No more opinions. No more comments. No more worrying about everyone else. Nope, not anymore. The new Amy is keeping to herself. I will be a quiet little, ugly, worthless thing that keeps her thoughts to herself.
--a new beginning---
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First of all, isn't Bindi your third puppy? lol. But I guess you mean your first puppy outside of your parents' house.
It does suck when speaking your mind gets you into trouble. I know it sounds cliche, but people can only hurt you as much as you let them.
You just have to rise above the people that want to bring you down. People are always going to say hurtful things and the hard part is learning to have a thick skin but not thick enough to be jaded.
And remember, for every person who wants to talk shit, there's someone who thinks you are amazing. =)
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