Feeling jipped

ive always been responsible and it has ALWAYS bitten me in the ass. When dan and i decided to move out on our own we bought a house we could afford. The house needed a lot of TLC but it was in our price range and we were excited with the endless possibilities we would have at remodeling and making it our own. Fast forward 2 years and now people who were irresponsible are having the government save them and now a house in our price range wouldnt need all these friggin renovations. Over the past 2 yrs we have replaced almost everything in the stupid house and we still have so much more to do. Ive grown to hate the house. Free time and money is spent fixing up things, and the house still sux. The latest project to suck the life out of me is putting in new interior doors. what a sucky project. I wish we lived beyond our means because we would have a nice house that i wouldnt have to spend my summer vacation money this year on replacement windows =( being a home owner sucks.

Future

This past week i celebrated my 26th birthday. Beyond that fact that im starting to feel old, it really got me thinking. It has been 10 years since i celebrated my 16th birthday and gained my freedom of being able to have a job and being able to drive. Which got me to also start thinking. Around the time i was 16 people would always ask where do u see yourself 10 yrs from now? My answer was always, house, husband, good job. So here i am 10 years later and i can say, i did it! i met my goals! Which leads me to my next thought. Now what? I have never seen my self as a mother, but i assume in the next 10 years thats something that will happen. I guess my goals for the next 10 years are to keep the goals i have met and to remain happy! The moral of this story? I am way too hard on myself and need to be happy with what i have done. So heres to a happy, healthy next 10 years! :)

Rough

Its been a rough week. On thursday 10 people were laid off at my job. I knew and worked closely with at least half of them including someone who had my former position!! I spent my entire work day on thursday stressing out about who in our dept would get the axe. Im glad it wasnt me, but it still made me upset because it easily could have been!!! My boss assures us that we wont have any more cuts in our department, but u never know. It caused me to really take a look @ my life. What would i have done if i was laid off? I have student loans, car payments and a mortgage!!!! I went to school for communication, so i dont even have a fall back! I would def have to go back to school. Which made me really think that maybe i should have gone to school for something better to begin with. Why didnt i push my self harder to be able to have a secure job. As always, im left second guessing my life. I am very thankful for everything i have and very thankful that it was not me that got laid off. But this hit a little to close to home for me. Now at work i have buckled down and really started making my self obnoxiously available. i cant get laid off! This is such a scary time.

Growing

I'm at a weird junction in my life. People who i always thought were my friends have grown distant, have had children, or just moved on with life. Lately being friends with people has been a lot of work. I can count on one hand the number true friends i have. Im thankful for my few close friends, but when i look back and think of how far apart i have grown from some of my closest friends it makes me sad. I know its all part of growing up, but even when i try to make plans with people they never pan out. This week it has become evident that event planning with people we thought were our friends is near impossible. So from now on i am done trying. If my 'extended' friends want to get together they can plan it. I am sick of being the one bending over backwards and trying to get everyone together. I will stick with my true best friends and be thankful that i have them.

St. Patricks Day

This is a 'holiday' i never really understood. I am not Irish, but growing up in this part of the country, i am one of the only people i know with no Irish in them. I used to hate in school when we would make shamrocks and call our selves things like 'amy o'bonaparte' thats not name. Corned beef and cabbage makes me want to hurl, Irish music is terrible. But i married an irish dude, so i am forced to participate in St patricks day. But all is not lost with this non-holiday, it is the official start to the count down till my birthday!! (one week!!!!) So i will drink my green beer to that!!

Life

Ok so i let the dog sleep in our bed. I know i prob shouldnt, but shes so snugly and lovable that i cant let her sleep all night in her cage! Normally she sleeps at the top of the bed and snuggles her head with my head and sleep all night with out any problems. The past week she has decided to sleep at the foot of our bed, on my side, pinning me in what ever spot im in all night. This has resulted in me sleeping in very strange, uncomfortable positions. I have not gotten a good night sleep all week and now im super tired :(

In other others news, Im a gullible chump who gets walked all over. tho this is nothing new...

Just what i needed

This weekend was perfect. Saturday Dan and i headed up to patriot place. We got a ton of things @ old navy, but over all didnt shop too much. It was nice to get out and walk around outside with out a huge jacket on. Sunday, i read out side and listened to some music (one of my favorite things to do). Then we took the pup for a nice walk around the neighborhood. It was great to actually get out with her and she was more than happy! We topped off the weekend with my second favorite part about the month of march! SHAMROCK SHAKES! yum!!!

The beautiful sunshine, warm weather and escape from the 4 walls of my house was exactly what i needed to bring my spirits up. I am not a winter person and i live for these nice spring days. now today we are back to reality with a snowy mess outside. I love new england!

that time of year again

Every year around this time, i get into a funk. Im sick of winter and ready for spring. Spring is my favorite time of year. I love the flowers blooming, the grass growing, the sun staying out later and the warmer days. This weekend looks like it will be a nice taste of spring time. Im looking forward to this crappy winter to be done with. I have def been in a funk the past few weeks, but with day light savings time this weekend and the warmer weather, i hope i will be able to get back to being my cheery self :)