Rough

Its been a rough week. On thursday 10 people were laid off at my job. I knew and worked closely with at least half of them including someone who had my former position!! I spent my entire work day on thursday stressing out about who in our dept would get the axe. Im glad it wasnt me, but it still made me upset because it easily could have been!!! My boss assures us that we wont have any more cuts in our department, but u never know. It caused me to really take a look @ my life. What would i have done if i was laid off? I have student loans, car payments and a mortgage!!!! I went to school for communication, so i dont even have a fall back! I would def have to go back to school. Which made me really think that maybe i should have gone to school for something better to begin with. Why didnt i push my self harder to be able to have a secure job. As always, im left second guessing my life. I am very thankful for everything i have and very thankful that it was not me that got laid off. But this hit a little to close to home for me. Now at work i have buckled down and really started making my self obnoxiously available. i cant get laid off! This is such a scary time.